Why do I always set myself up for disappointment?

I wish I could be more accepting of the things the people in my life choose. I expect too much from people, but what I expect is not anything that I wouldn’t be willing to do for them. That’s the thing. If I see a problem, I will voice my opinion and hope that they will take my advice, but when they don’t, I start setting ultimatums, and eventually I will remove those people from my life when they continuously let me down.

Doesn’t seem fair, does it? But what if the things these people did, somehow affected me in some kind of way. Most of the time, I only set ultimatums when I am in a relationship. Why would I want to be with someone who is selfish and does not care about hurting the relationship they are in with me? I would not care to be in that kind of relationship. More times than not I will just bitch and complain, and finally just ask something of them. I know that there is a high possibility that they will pretend like they are changing their way, but more times than not, they are not, and are very transparent.

I can see through people very easily. It’s a trait that I was born with. I can read people better than they can read themselves. I look at body language, the words that are spoken, and whatever else I can find to determine how honest they are with me as well as their self. When you are brought up being lied to constantly, you become extremely conscious of a liar.

It’s why I have such a good memory of the things people tell me. Most of the time a liar will forget their lie. Lucky for me, when they lie to me, I always have a gut feeling, so I end up remembering that moment until they tell on them self, and then I shove that in their face. It may sound terrible to some people, but I hate a liar more than anything in this world. I don’t believe that a liar should get away with their lie.

Of course there are times when it is best to just not say anything at all. Most the time I just hold my tongue, but it will eventually come out in the open. I can only let someone betray me for so long before I break.

I am pretty close to that point now. Just a matter of time.

 

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